Thursday, June 18, 2009

Time just seems to roll right by.



June 19th, 1982 seems like a blink of a eye and yet seems like more then 100 years. How can one date hold so much time in a blink of a eye? How did the time whiz right past us? Did we spend so much time making a living that we forgot to take time and enjoy some slow motion?
27 years ago, my Husband- Michael and I were married. I remember the post last year and it doesn't seem like it has been a year already. Then again it doesn't seem like June either. I have been going full steam ahead for so many months that most of the moments in my life lately are simply blinks of a eye. I remember waking, having tea and toast. Zooming about like a mad hatter and then laying my ragged head on the pillow for a bit of slumber one more time. The good thing is I still get to wake to the beauty around me and love in my heart.
Michael is a wonderful man and has so many qualities I admire most in people. I am blessed that he puts up with this short, tempered( ha ha) redhead. I always tease him and tell him I am worth it. LOL

As we planned our lives together,I knew the day would come when our children would grow up. Be finishing high school and moving on to college, marriage and children of their own. I also knew that one day my father would leave this world and I would be caring for my Mother till she was a 100 and still full of it. LOL I just didn't expect is so quickly.
I look back on my life and remember special moments but the everyday has fallen to the back of the memory banks for a moment when peace comes upon me like the fog. Sliding in slowly until nothing in sight remains but white mist. The mist has been replaced at the moment by the ever ending clicks of a ticking clock, running errands, spending hours in a zippy little car, chasing dog food and houses. I am craving solitude, a strong cup of tea and a sewing machine. That moment in time will have to wait. I pray it comes soon.

My heart is restless and over thrown with guilt. Guilt for things that should be done and yet unfinished. Guilt that my poor husband has fixed himself dinner everyday this week. I haven't even seen or hugged him in two days. Guilt that tomorrow as I celebrate another year of bliss with my dear Husband, my Mother grieves for hers as this was the day they met. Guilt that I can not make the things happen for my Mother that I would like to happen in a timely fashion. I know I have no control over the housing market and if I did they would all be cheaper- I tell ya that! LOL At least for a week or two. Yes, I know I shouldn't feel this way my friends but you can not change these feeling sometimes. I am not looking for pity just spreading words onto a page. My mind and hands want to write and so this is the task at hand that I must complete. With that being said I think what my heart had to say has been spoken. So I will flip the page.

I hope I haven't sent you into a coma from complete boredom. I will have some news and maybe even a celebration to share where you could enjoy the excitement more then expected. So stay tuned my friends. I have the tea pot on and things are stirring about. Now that I cleared some of the cobwebs and gathered dust off the old cellar, maybe I can get Egor to fire up the electrodes and zap some life into the random body parts laying around the house. mmmmmwaaa ahhhaaa! See this is why your mom tells ya to pick up after yourself! LOL
Have a wonderful weekend. Don't worry I will be back to stalk you soon.
hugs,Pea

13 comments:

Unknown said...

PEA.....

((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))

You are allowed to write words on a page dear friend. I feel the same way as you. My Mom is a fiery spit fire red head. I was born with red alas only Dark brown with red tones...I love the picture and words. I love the pic you chose for giveaway...I so enjoy your spirit and friendship.....

Enjoy and Happy Anniversary...

Remember we have no control of anything in this world, just how we treat others.....

HUGS...Sonia ;)

Denni said...

Happy anniversary. Your a great wife, mother, and daughter!

cynthia lee designs said...

Hi Pea,
I'll be married 30 years this September...and I so agree that time seems to roll by too quickly.
It is hard sometimes that we have no control over things that are going on in our lives. And sometimes it is good for us to just write our words down and let those feelings out...I think it is good for the soul!!
hugs,
Cindy
cynthialeedesigns.wordpress.com

PEA said...

Sonia,
Hugs- back! I also enjoy your friendship and spirit. You make me laugh sometimes when I want to cry. That is a rare gift.

Yes, your final words are so very true. How we treat folks is what is the most important. Thank you for the hugs, feeling my pain and the little reminder to dust off my @ssets and move on. LOL
Hugs,Pea

PEA said...

Denni,
Thank you for that. I really needed to hear it.
Blessings,Pea

PEA said...

Cynthia,
I couldn't agree more. I have always enjoyed writing. I wanted to be a writer once upon a time. I started writing a few weeks ago again for myself and I find it to be changing the way I feel day to day. For the better most days.
So I shall continue even if for myself. Thank you!
Blessings,Pea

Anonymous said...

Awwwww, Pea... what a thoughtful post, and very soul searching. Not many people can pour that out in the written word. I envy that about you. Happy Anniversary my friend. Enjoy eachother every day... :-)
Hugs, Mo

PEA said...

Mo,
what have you been sniffing. Too much ink from the printer I bet;)! Envy me? silly, willy. Thank you sweets but you are far too talented to envy me. I admire you let us just say that.
Yes, it is true I do like to pour out blubber onto a page from time to time. Don't know how most folks take it but it is good for me to just get it out.
I had a pretty good anniversary and yes enjoying him. Diddo my friend.
Hugs,Pea

Anonymous said...

Sometimes we find therapy in the strangest places... hmmmmmmm... We wont talk about where I find mine. LOL

enough said, and YES, I envy you, you are very in touch with your emotions and feelings, not many of us can say that. Hugs and Loves... MO

~Tonya said...

Love the post! Happy belated Anniversary...WOW, time sure does fly. I remember the post from last year too.

Has it really been a year? My gosh, I can't believe how fast the time flies.

I can tell you were lost in thought for a while. Nice to see your thoughts put to typing.

Hugs,
~Tonya

Unknown said...

Pea...
Im here hun...Wow Im on a hectic week with you...Email me sweetie...

Hugs Sonia ;)

PEA said...

Ahhhhhhhhh Thank you Tonya. Yep, time has been flying fast.

I like writing but I get too wordy sometimes I think. Hey that is what blogs are for though right? Sharing? Well, I take out all the guess work out for you guys. LOL
Have a great week
Hugs,Pea

PEA said...

Sonia,
Oh it is okay dear. I know how it goes. Just you are a serious blogger and when I didn't see ya I thought,mmmmmmmmmmm wonder if she is okay?
I sent ya a note.
Hugs,Pea