Thursday, November 8, 2012

A new Revolving door

Just when you think you have a plan, those plans are changed in a blink of a eye.
 My sweet Mom had a stroke. She was found 3 days after the stroke in the floor of her bedroom. Can you say GUILT! OMG yes, I feel so much. I don't talk to mom everyday, I don't see her everyday. She is pretty independent and does mostly for herself.
 So I had all these plans of defunking my home, life, body.... Yea, famous last words as now there is that new revolving door that will have me swinging.
 Mom is such a strong woman. Not only butt kicking wise but also emotionally, willfully so. She has managed to pull out every restraint, IV, cath, Tube, heart monitor, blood pressure, mitts, etc that is known to nurse and aid. Even with a sailors knot. OH for the LOVE OF PETE! She is a freaking Houdini. We are trying to keep her in bed, safe from any more harm. Especially since she is still unstable balance and mind.
 Her body has missed any damage but sadly her mind has not been so lucky. The remarkable thing is she might be better off then first thought. My Mother tied a bow today all on her own without coaching Just 5 days after a stroke. This is huge but still has a very long road ahead of her. As do I, the soul caregiver. Her best advocate for her and her well being. It is something that is very hard for me to do, but I take it on like a good coat. Holding it close to my heart and wearing it with a grin or a frown depending on who or what is in my way. God all help you if you are in my way.
 So I don't know when or where we will be next post but I will try and keep this up to date.
 Call your mom's and check on them:)


Tracy said...

Your mom is a feisty one and for that she is doing better then expected.
You are so lucky that she was so independent.
I too was the sole caregiver of my dad (which you know) and I did talk to him many times a day, visited almost daily and made sure he ate and tried to keep him as independent as he could be.
But it doesn't matter how often we see our parents, we can't be there for them 24 hours a day.
We can't even be there for our children 24 hours a day.
Hugs to you my friend. Take that guilt and throw it out the window, it doesn't deserve your time, you have nothing to feel guilty for.

PEA said...

Thank you Tracy, still a tough one and she plays that tune so well;) LOL
I am just trying to get through each day as it comes and enjoy what time we have left together.