Monday, February 28, 2011

BROKEN


This is just how Mom and I feel today. Broken. We left the doctors office in tears. It seems I was right. I hate when I am right when it revolves around unpleasantness.
Mom's Aortic Valve is very tight and simply worn out. She is loosing quite a bit of oxygen. It is only going to get worse and the only fix for this is Open heart Surgery. Mom has chosen not to have the surgery at her age. She watched Daddy suffer after his triple bypass and knows instead of getting better he got worse. She doen't want to go through that. She is having memory issues as well. So this was a huge blow to her.
At least this explained the episode that Mom had back in June of last year that was unsolved. I just hope that she doesn't feel pain. The doctor wants her to think about it. If you knew my Mother or me for that matter, we don't change our minds often. If we say that is it, then that is it. I will continue to hold onto what little hope I can muster up. Either way it is borrowed time.

Yesterday was so very hard for her. It would have been her 45th wedding anniversary for her and Daddy. I miss him so much it isn't even funny. We both do.
I will be busy the rest of this week. Hope it helps to take my mind off things. I will be back in a few days.
Thank you for all the prayers.
hugs,Pea

5 comments:

Jingle said...

Oh, I am so sorry you are going through this! I will keep you and your mom in prayer. I can't even begin to truly imagine how you both feel right now!

Schell said...

Pea, I am so sorry to hear about your mom. Mine too will not have any surgery. She has CHF and cardiomyopathy. Diagnosed in 2004 and not suppose to have made it this far. God is the one with the plan for all of us so stay strong and hang in there. I will keep you both in my prayers :0) Warmest Hugs!!!! Schell

cynthia lee designs said...

Saying prayers for you and your mom.
hugs,
Cindy

Christine said...

Pea, Prayers for you and your Mom....hugs, christine

PEA said...

So sorry Girls I have been with Mom to doctors and such.
Thank you so much Jingle, Schell, Cindy and Christine! It is so appreciated.
Schell I am so sorry to hear about your Mom and yes God has the plan. I just have to be Thankful for each day. Hope her quality of life does not include pain.
hugs,Pea